i was just about to sleep when my phone rang. of course, i had the choice to answer it or not. but when i looked at it, it was jenny, my best friend. i sit up on my bed and answered it. i said my hello and all i heard was sobbing. it got me worried and felt weird that this was the answer i got from saying my hello on the phone.
then she said hello and the sobbing cried. I waited for her to say the first words. she knew that i will always be listening.
"you were right. he was seeing someone else.", she said.
it was kind of late for us to talk on the phone but i felt alright that i was talking to her. she was someone i can talk to anytime of the day and i was the same for her. we were friends for a 9 years. she has seen me fall and i have seen her got hurt. but the thing is, we have been there for each other.
the day that she told that she likes this guy was really weird. i prayed that i would breathe well so to give her a free hand. she was in love- but not with me. it hurts. (i think!) and i wasn't happy at all. yet she still makes me smile when i see her.
two or three years ago, i met an accident. my car crashed and i was driving from school. ending up in the hospital for 6 days. it was a rush of everything. the only thing i can't forget was her crying in front of me while nagging at me of how careless i was. "do you want to leave me alone?!" were the words that made me realize that i had to live for someone more than my family would know and more than my heart would feel.
I had to undergo surgery since i broke my leg. still she was there nagging beside me and helping me one step at a time in rehab. she was my half. nurses would ask of where she was if she wasn't assisting me. i would often see them smiling behind her as she nags about me being lazy and a slob for not exercising. she motivated me to stand up and do more rehab.
six months later, she found someone that made her feel special. someone who wasn't careless and lazy. i left my heart open to wait for her. and i knew she was happy with him. she pictures it as special and one of a kind. i see it the same way.
i came back to school and had some friends in college. i was the quiet one in the group who had the charm of making girls smile. they said it was my gift. i didn't mind it. i wasn't handsome (i thought). i was just me. lazy, careless and waiting. i didn't realize that i was broken for a long time. i would still think of her. we are still friends. she still nags at me.
a year later, she seemed to avoid me. i didn't know why. my friends heard something that her boyfriend was seeing someone else. i didn't believe them. still i was waiting.
i was hanging out in the mall when i saw her boyfriend with another girl. holding hands, sweet, smiling-like they were more than together forever. i was cold, stunned and speechless. then i decided to keep it to myself. it made me uneasy to think that i was keeping something in order for her not to get hurt. i knew i was still waiting but i had to be the quiet guy. i don't want her to get hurt again just because of me.
it was a tough day at school and i decided not to go online or play games. i was getting ready to go to bed after making my thesis draft and doing more research for school. i haven't heard from her in days and nagging was something i missed. it made me smile when i remembered the nagging.
i fixed my bed and prepared the alarm clock to ring at 4:00am even though its 1:43am.
i was just about to sleep when my phone rang. of course, i had the choice to answer it or not. but when i looked at it, it was jenny, my best friend. i sit up on my bed and answered it. i said my hello and all i heard was sobbing. it got me worried and felt weird that this was the answer i got from saying my hello on the phone.
then she said hello and the sobbing cried. I waited for her to say the first words. she knew that i will always be listening.
"you were right. he was seeing someone.", she said.
then i said my words through a song i heard over the net. it was weird to be singing over the phone to someone who was hurt and sad. but i knew that it would make her feel better and at the same time would free me from what i really feel. the lines go:
"And I know I've always just been your friend, But if you look my way, I'll make sure you'll never hurt again.
Do you know I exist, just to promise you this, Endlessly to be true to you, And if you answer my prayer, I cross my heart and I'd swear Endlessly to be true to you,
And if you'd only see,How beautiful you and I would be, endlessly."
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