Friday, November 17, 2017

Dubai Life - Living alone and the quiet battle

Living alone – the real challenge.

Coming to Dubai, I left the Philippines as a single guy. Wasn’t dating anyone or had any lasting relationship. Many things were written on my list and having a relationship wasn’t on it. I had my reasons but at some point, the dreaming became lonely. I once posted lyrics of a certain song on my Facebook and until now, its stuck with me.

Since Dubai is a bowl of cultures and nationalities, meeting people was easy. Social Media, friends of friends or even just by going to the bar you would be able to meet someone from the same country or from another. But meeting with people who will be there is difficult.

I am one of the few lucky ones to have family here abroad. People who will not judge you nor ask much of you. People who know me and people who will always be there for me. Family.

Having family though is like owning a double-edged sword, playing with in on air pretending to have a fight. Like a kid playing with his light saber in the playground. But like laser it cuts both ways. And somehow, it hurts me as well.

Independence has been something that I had since before. But there are limits and these conditions – family, friends, work – changes everything.  Having things to reconsider and weigh. Thinking a hundred times before doing an actual decision. It reached to a point where holding on was the only choice to do. Quietly holding on to the dream even if pain has been unreasonable. Pain that is unexplainable but there. Pain that lurks in the corner of being alone. Pain that shows itself when one is at its weakest.


Coming to Dubai I have never thought about fighting a quiet battle. But alas, I have conquered it. It was not easy but I have emerged victorious and calm. All from independence, family, living alone and Dubai.

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