i was just about to sleep when my phone rang. of course, i had the choice to answer it or not. but when i looked at it, it was henry, my best friend. i sit up on my bed and answered it. i said my hello and all i heard was sobbing. it got me worried and felt weird that this was the answer i got from saying my hello on the phone.
then he said hello and the sobbing cried. I waited for him to say the first words. he knew that i will always be listening.
"you were right. he was seeing someone else.", he said.
it was kind of late for us to talk on the phone but i felt alright that i was talking to him. he was someone i can talk to anytime of the day and i was the same for him. we were friends for 9 years. he has seen me fall and i have seen him got hurt. so the thing is, we have been there for each other.
the day that he told that he likes this guy was really weird. i prayed that i would breathe well so to give him a free hand. he was in love- but not with me. it hurts. (i think!) and i wasn't happy at all. yet he still makes me smile when i see him.
two or three years ago, i met an accident. my car crashed and i was driving from school. ending up in the hospital for 6 days. it was a rush of everything. the only thing i can't forget was him crying in front of me while nagging at me of how careless i was. "do you want to leave me alone?!" were the words that made me realize that i had to live for someone more than my family would know and more than my heart would feel.
I had to undergo surgery since i broke my leg. still he was there nagging beside me and helping me one step at a time in rehab. he was my half. nurses would ask of where he was if he wasn't assisting me. i would often see them smiling behind him as he nags about me being lazy and a slob for not exercising. he motivated me to stand up and do more rehab.
six months later, he found someone that made him feel special. someone who wasn't careless and lazy. i left my heart open to wait for him. and i knew he was happy with him. he pictures it as special and one of a kind. i see it the same way.
i came back to school and had some friends in college. i was the quiet one in the group who had the charm of making everyone smile. they said it was my gift. i didn't mind it. i wasn't handsome (i thought). i was just me. lazy, careless and waiting. i didn't realize that i was broken for a long time. i would still think of him. we are still friends. he still nags at me.
a year later, he seemed to avoid me. i didn't know why. my friends heard something that his boyfriend was seeing someone else. i didn't believe them. still i was waiting.
i was hanging out in the mall when i saw his boyfriend with another guy. holding hands, sweet, smiling-like they were more than together forever. i was cold, stunned and speechless. then i decided to keep it to myself. it made me uneasy to think that i was keeping something in order for him not to get hurt. i knew i was still waiting but i had to be the quiet guy. i don't want him to get hurt again just because of me.
it was a tough day at school and i decided not to go online or play games. i was getting ready to go to bed after making my thesis draft and doing more research for school. i haven't heard from him in days and nagging was something i missed. it made me smile when i remembered the nagging.
i fixed my bed and prepared the alarm clock to ring at 4:00am even though its 1:43am.
i was just about to sleep when my phone rang. of course, i had the choice to answer it or not. but when i looked at it, it was henry, my best friend. i sit up on my bed and answered it. i said my hello and all i heard was sobbing. it got me worried and felt weird that this was the answer i got from saying my hello on the phone.
then he said hello and the sobbing cried. I waited for him to say the first words. he knew that i will always be listening.
"you were right. he was seeing someone.", he said.
then i said my words through a song i heard over the net. it was weird to be singing over the phone to someone who was hurt and sad. but i knew that it would make him feel better and at the same time would free me from what i really feel. the lines go:
"And I know I've always just been your friend, But if you look my way, I'll make sure you'll never hurt again.
Do you know I exist, just to promise you this, Endlessly to be true to you, And if you answer my prayer, I cross my heart and I'd swear Endlessly to be true to you,
And if you'd only see,How beautiful you and I would be, endlessly."
-Jeremy
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